So this novel is a lot harder then I thought. I have done weeks on research to establish characters but every time I sit down to put it into a story, my brain just shuts off. It just seems like such a monumental task. Despite the hours I have put into it, I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere in terms of character development or cohesive narrative content. It's frustrating. Maybe my mom was right. UGH...it seems too late to give up now. I have never been a quitter. I think I'm going to put it on the back burner for a while.
On a more positive note, I got a job as a barista at a coffee shop down the street. It is actually a lot of fun. However, it is a SERIOUS pay cut from my desk job that I quit last month. I like to think of it as temporary though. It gets a little exhausting to wait on customers hand and foot. I have a $40,000 a year education and I would like to put it to use. I was getting paid fairly well at my other job but it wasn't for me. I need space to be creative. Unfortunately, creative isn't a career. Heck, it's not even a job. I'm at a serious transition phase and I don't see an end in sight.
Sadly, I stopped talking to Danny as much. Things kind of fizzled out after I told him that I wanted to be a novelist. We met for dinner once last week and coffee a few times this week, but he is so career driven that he can't understand some of my decisions. He works as an investment banker. Sounds totally boring to me. I guess we just think differently. It was really refreshing to have an honest relationship with someone. Although, I think we are better off as friends.
Speaking of friends, I've started hanging out with a couple people from the coffee shop. They know a lot more people in the area and have started bringing me out to the bars. Andrea and Brian are about my age and both graduated from Emerson 2 years ago. They have been friends for a while and I have a funny feeling that Brian is in love with Andrea. As far as I can tell, she has no idea. Sort of cute! I feel bad for Brian though, Andrea has a tendency to drag him around with her and says he is her BFF. The term BFF makes me sick for some reason. It sounds so lame, I don't know how he puts up with it. Anyway, I am going out to a new bar with them tonight to meet up with some people. I'm a little nervous but I have been doing a lot better at telling the truth to people, especially strangers.

Got to get ready--

-L